within the clouds

Assalamualaikum.  Cerita . Future . Have u ever think of ur future what it would be like?  I've imagine my future hundred times in my mind. But im still afraid on how the reality would be like. Would my heart change? Would his? Would we be together? Can i be happy?  It sad if we're not what we wanted to be .  Till then T. R. A

Assalamualaikum  Im so tired. Physically drained. I really wanna sleep for a whole day.  P/s: To the guy who used to be my best friend.  Its awkward to talk to u now And i dont know why Im sorry if u dont like my attitude  But i dont really know wht to say to u.  We've become so distance that i dont even think of u And when i see u on the hallway or just anywere I got this feeling that i dont want to talk to u and it was really awkward Mybe im too harsh bcuz we used to be so close But maybe it was just bcause i used to lose a friend in the past and to think i lose another one now. It hurts more than a mosquito bite. It has become like a virus.  Till then T. R . A

Assalamualaikum. Topik harini agk cliche. -.- But actually xtau nak letak tajuk apa.  In my whole life. I've met a whole bunch of people.  Most of them was so nice and kind but some. Well they're humans. What do u expect.  Right now i feel like . I havent done anything to be proud of. The way i say i wanna succeed but i dont really try to. It makes me sad . Cuz i know . I've made tons of choices but many of them arent really good.  I wanna change so badly that right now even when physically im so damn tired i feel like if i go to bed now . I might miss something. And it makes me feel kinda lonely.  I think if i watch a bollywood movie now. My tears would be flowing down my cheeks. Cuz im really dissapointed in myself. I wanna strive forward but its like 2 step forward 3 step backwards.  Nothing has change. And even if something did change. Its not really something i can be proud of. Till then  T . R . A

He didnt know wht he did and yet he says sorry. Its even more heart breaking .  Wish im strong but im not. Guide me Allah. Its not even his fault.